Wednesday, October 25, 2006
_*A Blissful Thought*_
Here am I back in my comfort zone, not exactly my home but rather a place where I'm left quietly to myself for some blissful luxury of a comfy bed in an air-conditioned room.
It's getting dark even though it's only 1600 in the afternoon, looks like it's gonna rain and I'm glad to have heard the raindrops splattering onto the green shade outside the window...all I need now was a good nap for the weariness in me is causing me some mild headaches.
Here am I so close to the very scent of his belongings and missing him occurs almost every minute, being divided between the waters of Singapore and Tekong Island... I'm really wishing that time will steal us some moment in space, where only the 2 of us exists and there's literally no one else to take notice of.
A mere thought to myself, I think I'd be pampering myself very soon...my hair's in a mess and my clothes in my closet don't seem to compliment me anymore, I'm needing to do some girl's stuff and hopefully this will keep me occupied 10 days from now. Counting down to the days that has 24hours is vexing and I have reckoned to myself that I'd be better off spending my days doing things which I know will bring smiles to my face.
Considerably, I'm quite packed with activities...it's just that I can't get to share them with the person I love most in life. I have a filming to do this coming Friday, Dance practice & an event to attend to on Saturday and loads of work for me to complete by Sunday. Best of all, I have dance lesson later this evening at 1830 ~
in a silent prayer..."I'd hope the rain would stop by then"
Da won't be around this weekend, he'd be busy with his field camp having powder baths and some Jungle activities. What an experience that I will never get to have, I know he'll enjoy it even though it sucks not being able to have a proper bath and a decent bed for the night's rest.
Right, one last thing I would love to share with the readers of my blog today:
My Bus Ride was horrible I need almost an hour and 20 minutes to get to school, fares don't seem to get any cheaper for Polytechnic students and I really wonder why... aren't we students? Is the word 'Prejudice' a statement here? I guess as much it is, oh well ~ like it or not, transportation fees it's a necessary expenditure.
Penning off here...just as the rain subsides, I'm wanting my afternoon nap still ~
Zzzzzzzz..............
~*In the girls room*~ @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
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_*Parting in an Instance*_
Da seemed so far apart again everytime the weekend is over
He was just next to me, sound asleep where I could wrap my arms around him so dearly
But now he's gone again, this time round for 11 days
I left alone again hugging the only scent that's left on his little soft pillow
It hurts so much to let him go; knowing that it's gonna be another long seperation
I don't know how to react but wonder if I should pretend that it all didn't matter now that he's gone...
He said the sweetest declaration today, although knowing down deep in my heart that I already knew he loves me very much, but hearing them from him himself gave me all the assurance I needed to bring myself through for the next 11 days without him by my side.
I always wonder if I'd have that patience long enough if it's gonna be years of waiting...a wait that will be between borders of oceans and skies. What will happen there and then... will we still continue being together or would it be better to end the relationship for it's gonna be a torture.
Either way, I guess as much this day will come sooner than expected and I really am struggling within myself if I'm going on the right path. Loving him so much makes it all a difficult struggle and honestly, I'm already feeling lost. All in all, I know he can't give me any promise because it so untelling of what decisions he will make.
Him knowing my worries will not help anyway and dwelling on it saddens me each day. Try as I might to bring myself out of this but this love I have for him is so deep that it's hard for me to let go.
Here I am still in my bermuda triangle, lost in direction; pursuing the love of my life... Loving him altogether makes the maze more complicated to walk alone stranded in silent tears.
~*In the girls room*~ @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
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