Monday, November 27, 2006
_*The Art of Studying*_
Tests! Exams! Projects!
It all comes together as one 'mind-disturbing' schedule
RAN Written is due tomorrow at 1.00pm noon
13 chapters of contents; of which doesn't seem to make any sense
Am wanting to get it over and done with ASAP
But the agony of memorizing something senseless is 'torturing'!
My weekend was eventful
I had my performance and an enjoyable time with my precious Da
It is one's blessing to be loved dearly by someone you have been loving
I was pampered since day 1 and I will always cherish every moment we have had
A gift of Haagen Dazs every week! Okay...I know I'm spoilt ~ winks
My movie last weekend was SAW III
This is not for the faint hearted once again...it is absolutely gruesome and bloody!
Been trying to go on a diet? Watch this movie and it will be spoiling your day's appetite
I rate it 8/10 (BEST gothic scene of the year!)
Just a notice for you: It's R21 *obviously it has a bit of nudity, but in an artistic way
Alright for now...gonna have to get back on track with my chapters
I hate reminding myself for that, but argh! I have to do it nevertheless
Praying for God's strength and wisdom... ...
reluctanly exits the room with a heart longing for the holidays to come
~*In the girls room*~ @ Monday, November 27, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Monday, November 27, 2006
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
_*Winds of Change*_
Haven't been blogging much... ...
Have the dust been building up on my site?
I wanted so much to change my blog skin
But nothing caught my eye just yet
Am working on one ~ initially
But am at the mercy of html codings
Urgh!
I am so looking forward to my dearest prince graduation day
It's all gonna be OVER in just 2 more weeks!
And he promised me he'd take me for a short holiday =D
5th December marks the day where my separation anxiety ends
Been missing lots of dance pratices lately
I somehow realized that weekends have become my most precious days
And that it's worth the sacrifices as long as I am happy!
Performance due this Saturday and I want to get it over and done with soonest
Am packed with rehersals till Friday
I didn't make it for my Mock Test today - 45.2%
Despite my effort reading the chapters the night before
And my assignment quizes today...an error occurred! How 'Lucky' can I be?!
Did my IS assignments and there goes my Tuesday, all in a blink of an eye
Here comes Wednesday with a sudden realization that I have not done my IS Reflection!
Okay, it's like due date for almost anything and everything
I need more than just some personal time, I need to catch my breath
It's gonna be a long week and short week for me...
Contradicting? Never mind, I think you'd probably get what I meant
I am begining to get use to life this way
Rushing to school and heading home straight
Anyway, been going out often with my boy's bunk mates
A bunch of indecisive guys who can't make up their minds sometimes
But I enjoyed everyone's company, for the fun and joy in our weekend outings
JB trip last week was short but fufilling for our tummies!
Jaron and Girlfriend is such a loving couple
Always showing mutual affections in public
A lovely dovey pair I must say
Well wishes to the both of you!
Clay, the school 'grass' of NP
The only 'single' amongst the couples
In search for his flower? Laughs ~ Perhaps someday he will
Starhub missed our weekly outings, else Clay would have a companion at least
I had a movie with mummy & brother last Friday [COLIC]
It was my movie treat for them to enjoy the start of their weekend
Am going broke, but well... it's my token of love for them at least
As for Daddy and younger brother ~ a treat of Mangoes and Chocolates!
Kuai Yong promised me a surprise this weekend!
How pampered can I be in the loving care of my dearest DA
Food is all that we can ever think of
But do you want to know the heathly part of us?
We completed the Canopy Walk last Sunday! Of course it was tiring but we MADE IT! 7KM
Upcoming...more activities on the way!
REHERSALS ALL THE WAY till [24/11/06]
PERFORMANCE this SATURDAY [25/11/06]
RAN Written TEST on TUESDAY [28/11/06]
NAFA TEST on FRIDAY [01/12/06]
RAN LAB TEST next SATURDAY [02/12/06]
and finally... Da's POP DAY! [03/12/06]
I WANT MY HOLIDAY WITH MY KUAI YONG (",) YOHOO!
... ehhh ... but only after my DCST Common Test Paper...
It never seems to end, plus my "work from home" assignments
I miss the good old days!
How about a wish-list for this coming Christmas
I want a Camera
I want more clothes
I want my yummy yougurt
I want my NYDC Chocolate Cake
I want my Holiday
I want a new Mobile Phone
I want my Driver's Licence
I want FINANCIAL FREEDOM
These are my WANTS and I never even thought about my NEEDS in life...
~*In the girls room*~ @ Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Wednesday, November 22, 2006
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Monday, October 30, 2006
_*Getting use to in Life*_
Here I am, awake at this kinda hour 0140 in the morning...
I'm feeling exhausted! I need a break from my activities...
Projects, Lectures, Tutorials, Practicals, Performances & Working Tasks
I need a breather, my mind's in a twirl...nothing seems to go right these days
Gosh it's only Monday! I'm so looking forward to Saturday!
7 Day field camp sounds horrible
10 kg back pack on a road march...
powder baths...
digging trenches...
meals that looks like baby-food...
bared skin for mosquitoe blood feast...
no mobile phones...
Yeah...no doubt about it, it's gonna be a torturous and dirty time of his life.
My heart goes out to him with little help that I can do to help ease his 'sufferings'
My only hope is that he'd be safe and comes back in one piece for me...
For what he has been through living in 'hell' for the 7 days field camp,
the best I could offer is a heartfelt warming hug when I see him this Saturday, perhaps a nice lovely dinner could be at least a percent compensation with regards to such lousy inedible food...but of course, a day's rest would be an added bonus but all in all; unlikely~ due to such a short resting period given for having to book in again on Sunday evening.
Counting the days and he's left with 5 more weeks till POP!
His mummy called and her plans seemed to have put me into a 'lost' state
Having to be given more than a path for a choice for my directions in life is a blessing,
but somehow there is so much that I can't give up especially to be apart from all the people I so love in life. I would very much love to help in the fashion business but I'm not really sure if this is what I want in life.
Small thoughts like these are tiring... I have been thinking so much about my future plans that I'm my mind wanders in and out of life's reality. The happier me don't seem to exists anymore and I really hope to rekindle that very joy & happiness that once shone upon my days... walking the pathway alone is mood dampening, just when will our paths meet again?
Sighs~ The sudden fear of losing is overwhelming!
~*In the girls room*~ @ Monday, October 30, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Monday, October 30, 2006
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
_*A Blissful Thought*_
Here am I back in my comfort zone, not exactly my home but rather a place where I'm left quietly to myself for some blissful luxury of a comfy bed in an air-conditioned room.
It's getting dark even though it's only 1600 in the afternoon, looks like it's gonna rain and I'm glad to have heard the raindrops splattering onto the green shade outside the window...all I need now was a good nap for the weariness in me is causing me some mild headaches.
Here am I so close to the very scent of his belongings and missing him occurs almost every minute, being divided between the waters of Singapore and Tekong Island... I'm really wishing that time will steal us some moment in space, where only the 2 of us exists and there's literally no one else to take notice of.
A mere thought to myself, I think I'd be pampering myself very soon...my hair's in a mess and my clothes in my closet don't seem to compliment me anymore, I'm needing to do some girl's stuff and hopefully this will keep me occupied 10 days from now. Counting down to the days that has 24hours is vexing and I have reckoned to myself that I'd be better off spending my days doing things which I know will bring smiles to my face.
Considerably, I'm quite packed with activities...it's just that I can't get to share them with the person I love most in life. I have a filming to do this coming Friday, Dance practice & an event to attend to on Saturday and loads of work for me to complete by Sunday. Best of all, I have dance lesson later this evening at 1830 ~
in a silent prayer..."I'd hope the rain would stop by then"
Da won't be around this weekend, he'd be busy with his field camp having powder baths and some Jungle activities. What an experience that I will never get to have, I know he'll enjoy it even though it sucks not being able to have a proper bath and a decent bed for the night's rest.
Right, one last thing I would love to share with the readers of my blog today:
My Bus Ride was horrible I need almost an hour and 20 minutes to get to school, fares don't seem to get any cheaper for Polytechnic students and I really wonder why... aren't we students? Is the word 'Prejudice' a statement here? I guess as much it is, oh well ~ like it or not, transportation fees it's a necessary expenditure.
Penning off here...just as the rain subsides, I'm wanting my afternoon nap still ~
Zzzzzzzz..............
~*In the girls room*~ @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
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_*Parting in an Instance*_
Da seemed so far apart again everytime the weekend is over
He was just next to me, sound asleep where I could wrap my arms around him so dearly
But now he's gone again, this time round for 11 days
I left alone again hugging the only scent that's left on his little soft pillow
It hurts so much to let him go; knowing that it's gonna be another long seperation
I don't know how to react but wonder if I should pretend that it all didn't matter now that he's gone...
He said the sweetest declaration today, although knowing down deep in my heart that I already knew he loves me very much, but hearing them from him himself gave me all the assurance I needed to bring myself through for the next 11 days without him by my side.
I always wonder if I'd have that patience long enough if it's gonna be years of waiting...a wait that will be between borders of oceans and skies. What will happen there and then... will we still continue being together or would it be better to end the relationship for it's gonna be a torture.
Either way, I guess as much this day will come sooner than expected and I really am struggling within myself if I'm going on the right path. Loving him so much makes it all a difficult struggle and honestly, I'm already feeling lost. All in all, I know he can't give me any promise because it so untelling of what decisions he will make.
Him knowing my worries will not help anyway and dwelling on it saddens me each day. Try as I might to bring myself out of this but this love I have for him is so deep that it's hard for me to let go.
Here I am still in my bermuda triangle, lost in direction; pursuing the love of my life... Loving him altogether makes the maze more complicated to walk alone stranded in silent tears.
~*In the girls room*~ @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
_*Weekend in a Blink*_
Thursday came and the weekend was soon over...
The demension in time took a change in its course again...
I have got to wait till this coming Friday...
The wait continued on this night without his embrace and kisses...
My Precious Da was taken ill with the attack of the coughs and flu...
He seemingly appeared moody and battered with muscles aching all over...
He's going through a different phase in life which gals like us won't understand...
All we cared about was whether we had a place in their minds with every second that passes...
Something seemed to have changed...
Or was it that nothing has changed...
The expected was neglected this time...
Should I be happy or should I be weary...
Now why did my weekend turned out so short?
Thursday was almost midnight by the time everything settled down...
Friday was halved because I had work to do till the evening...
Saturday was ruined because of some ridiculous request to be home...
Sunday came and it's back to square one again...
For a moment...as I lay in bed and as my eyes set upon his charming eye lashes...
I gave him a kiss; in it depicts how much I have missed him so...
I wish for once that time will stand still...
For me to remember this very night having him by my side, so close to me...
I didn't sleep well not because I was overly exhausted by work...
but because only this way would I have felt that the night with him was much much longer...
Him that I am so deeply in love with...
Brought mist into my eyes everytime he's gone...
The emptiness inside me filled my heart once again...
I looked at the stars from my window and whispered in a silent prayer...
"How much I wanted him by my side and if I could only open my eyes 5 days from now"
~*In the girls room*~ @ Sunday, September 24, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Sunday, September 24, 2006
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Friday, September 08, 2006
_*Missing You*_
Pulau Tekong on the 7th September 2006
A Journey which leaves a loved one's heart feeling the agony of separation
It may all be just two weeks
But time has now taken into a different demension
Where a second may take too long to pass; a minute that always seems to forever last
The person whom I so love in my life
Has gone to a far away place divided by the borders of restricted waters
Life came to a halt when we bid our goodbyes
The softness in our tones expressed the sadness somehow
A sudden realization that I've lost all energy to embrace him
If I held on any much longer; it would be even harder for me to let go
Trust myself to hide my genuine feelings
But I know making a false front that it didn't all matter was tearing me apart
Lying to myself didn't work this time, it's all aching in my heart to see him go
The wait of 2 weeks from now
The wait of 2 years from now
The wait of an assurance
The wait of a walk down the aisle of happiness
'wait' takes up almost half our lifetime but there's something in us that's worth waiting for...
The wait for someone whom you know you'll find life's true happiness
I took the last ferry with heartfelt worries
Will he sleep the night through comfortably...
Will he feel homesick...
Will he get by this two weeks with sufficient rest...
Will he have enough to eat...
Will he be bullied...
I know my worries are unfounded but this is someone whom I love with all my heart
I would want him to have the best in life
I put it all off with a smile for I know there'a a part of him that will enjoy this pride and honour given to him to serve the country
I boarded the bus with a heavy heart as I took a last glance of the ferry that disappeared into the waves and far away
My watch showed 6.50pm and I soon began to miss him
I went into flashbacks of how we met and got together in the end
He was someone who shared every part of my similarities
There was so much connectivity we had that has got us so closely attached
*The entire bus had this atmosphere where you knew everyone shared the same feeling as you did
" No matter how good the food may taste today; it would have been tasteless anyway"
How right can this person be...? He was right apparently; for I totally had no appetite to indulge myself with the food that was served today, although it may be sirlion steak with french fries...it looked like crap because I never wanted to taste a meal that would be the last till 2 weeks later~
My entire journey soon after was a total torture
Every minute I would hear the word 'Calvin'
Left and right the word echoed through my ears
and my separtion axiety grew stronger
All I wanted to do was to go home and read my long awaited email from my precious
I suppose they knew I wasn't in the mood to eat during dinner time at Tekong
Concerns were shown that I was to be hungry and I was dragged to have something to eat
I appreciated the thoughtfulness in them but my tummy seemd to have this weird feeling
I didn't want them to worry so I had 'kway teow' soup which I didn't even know why I ordered that
I couldn't forced myself anymore and I left 6 fishballs and merely gave an excuse that I was already full
She knew that wasn't my true reason... but it didn't matter to me anymore...I have grown weary of wearing a false front
She was such a dear and gave me a call to see how I was
This two folks I have grown to love and enjoy spending time with
They act as if I was their daughter and I truly treasured this very endearment in them
The knowlegement of 'Uncle' & 'Aunty' faded today
All I heard today was 'Daddy' & 'Mummy' instead
They too wanted the best for me and I was offered an opportunity
to work together with them for their fashion industry
I was promised personal nuturing and guidence from them
A 'sign' of acceptance was flashed to me
I was happy within but the future was untelling
I'm now left in dire straits for an assurance I know I will never be given
Dear Olufsen
This has got to be the longest word of truthness I have decided to post
"I read your email Da and I promise wholeheartedly that I'd be waiting no matter how long it takes"
Have me in your arms again this coming 21st September and you'll know how much I truly love you...absence does makes the heart grow founder.
Right Here Waiting...Ye|Lin
~*In the girls room*~ @ Friday, September 08, 2006
Your Time Now:
posted by Sherlaine @ Friday, September 08, 2006
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